I had been so looking forward to summer and the sea. Today is the summer solstice, early in the morning. The night was warm, the mosquito was annoying, but I still slept. Very well!

So far, my nights have been a bit like Russian roulette. Anything can happen. From sleepless, nightmare-filled, pain-ridden to completely knocked out. Sometimes there are also restful ones. Like last night. Despite difficult conditions, I slept well. I only woke up once and put a quark compress on my neck. It felt good, calmed the inflammation, and then I slept through until 9am. And that’s great! It already made for a really nice start to the day.

My morning routine includes dry brushing to stimulate lymph flow, cold/warm showers up to the hips. At the moment, a few biomechanical exercises to activate my gluteus, core, and trunk, as well as some activation exercises for the latissimus. While still lying in bed, I intuitively work on a few trigger points that I choose spontaneously; often it’s the trapezius, if I have a headache sometimes also the occipital muscles, and in the mornings the gluteus and pectoralis often join in as well.

Technical terms are allowed from time to time.

I have to laugh at myself right now, because I’m clearly starting to throw around anatomical terminology. That’s probably what comes with engaging biomechanically with my own body. Besides the effort, the setbacks, and the recurring bad reactions to change that my body tends to show, I’m really enjoying getting to know its structure and functionality better. Understanding and feeling how I can align myself better in everyday life and move in a more natural, appropriate way has been an absolute game changer for me. I can only warmly recommend this to any anatomy layperson like myself, and therefore I’m rather provocatively raising the question:

Do you know your body as well as your thoughts?

I definitely know my thoughts more than well. Am the queen of psychoanalysis, soul-reading, and the introspective aspects of my thinking spirals.

But my body, on the other hand, was often just supposed to function properly. And now that it’s, in a way, refusing to cooperate, I get to devote some very exclusive time to it.

For me, morning movement is essential, because I tend – especially since I was very unwell and bedridden – to have low blood pressure; and when it’s hot, like it currently is here in Croatia, it becomes twice as exhausting for me. I need this time in the morning to activate my body, otherwise I don’t feel well at all and I have to drag myself through the day.

I prefer a warm breakfast, today it was oatmeal with blueberries. I also like to eat a soft-boiled egg from time to time. Bread I’m not eating at the moment. As a substitute, a few gluten-free crackers work for me. Green tea is my coffee replacement and daily companion.

Then there are the supplements: currently magnesium, vitamin C, and D3 in the morning. Since I’m gently supporting detoxification at the moment, I also take a sip of Sonnenmoor quite some time later than the others. Between meals I take L-glutamine, and with lunch a gut health supplement specifically for the intestinal mucosa, omega-3, and vitamin E. In the afternoon I have another sip of Sonnenmoor. In between, I like to drink Yagcho Neuro, a powder with cocoa, reishi, hericium, ashwagandha, ginkgo… In the evening again magnesium and also K2. However, I don’t take D3 and K2 daily, as I use a higher dosage. I also sometimes skip magnesium in the evening because of my low blood pressure. Everyone should see for themselves what works best for them.

Help from the forest – Red/White

What has repeatedly been my greatest lifesaver for the nerves in my neck is my self-prepared amanita tincture. A few drops rubbed into the neck, and the nerves calm down very quickly. That is very relieving and supportive for the nervous system. Personally, I have to dose it carefully, and I can’t really use it at night, for example, because it lowers my blood pressure (which is fine for most people, but rather uncomfortable for me since it is already low). At night, instead, I prefer to use the aforementioned quark compress!

The immortelle macerate for rubbing on the skin is also wonderful. It calms the mind as well as the neck area, and I have the feeling it brings a light, uplifting energy into the field. Christoph, my partner, recently gathered fresh immortelle (strawflower) again by the sea, and I have now infused it in almond and jojoba oil.

In the evening, I also usually wear blue-light-blocking glasses and I avoid screens for two hours before going to bed. I also avoid eating dinner after 7pm.

All of these plant-based remedies, exercises, and supplements are not set in stone and are not professional medical information, as I vary them and try out what works for me. In any case, the body cannot utilize too much at once very well, and everyone reacts differently.

Please therefore handle this information responsibly on your own!

The sea and me.

Over the past three days, my son and I stayed in an apartment by the sea. We couldn’t afford a longer stay at the moment. Although my home in Croatia is only about a 45-minute drive from the coast and it used to be no big deal for me to drive to the beach for the day, enjoy the sea, and head back home in the evening … right now, however, I still can’t do that without my body paying the price.

So we decided to book a few consecutive days by the sea instead. That way, without all the driving, I could simply walk down to the water and, if the sun became too much, return to the apartment whenever I needed to. For the most part, the plan worked. Even though I underestimated how little time my body would have to adjust and just how intense the heat would be – in the end, I could only spend about an hour at the beach early in the morning and another hour just before sunset. But at least I got to feel the salty blue water on my skin again for several days in a row. What a blessing.

Having the sea right outside my door, yet not being able to dive into it the way I used to, but instead feeling like an old grandmother, quietly swimming just a few gentle laps, also filled me with a deep sadness. I painfully missed the memory of my wild-sea-self, the version of me who floated on my back for hours, jumped from the rocks into the water, and joyfully twisted and tumbled through the waves. I grieved the person I used to be.

Even though I know I live in the present, and that healing often doesn’t become any easier by clinging to the past, I also know that I’m allowed to grieve it. That is part of my process, and I won’t let those clever spiritual sayings take that away from me. I allow myself to fully experience my sadness and my emotions. They are, among other things, what fuel my determination to do everything necessary to regain my strength.

Despite those moments of grief, I didn’t miss the beauty of this little trip. We had a wonderful view of the sea from our terrace. That nourished me deeply.

New visions are emerging.

What a precious gift it has been to spend these days by the sea with my son. To have deep conversations with him, cook together, and also have enough time to talk about the official launch of his nohoru nonprofit frequency network of which I am now both a co-founder and a patron.

We have big plans.

Luca is a strong visionary with a rare ability to see the bigger picture, and I am proud to have been invited to help shape this journey. The long-envisioned ‘ Sound Healing Gathering ’ is gaining momentum once again, and the preparations, which had been put on hold due to my health challenges, are now again active. Soon there will be more concrete news to share.

Community, nature, and frequencies are at the heart of this New Era – the turning point that so many of us have longed for. Both within ourselves and in the world around us. It is the time to take the next steps. To strengthen the generations to come, to give them support, and to help their roots grow deep.

Quietly beginning to sense what purpose my difficult journey over the past few years may also have served, I continue, again and again, to let go of whatever keeps me from moving forward with an open, heart-centered spirit.

And after these intense, vision-filled days by the sea, I find myself wondering:

How many more enriching experiences can we heart-connected human beings help bring into the world in the near future, and what nourishing spaces can we create, both as individuals and as a community?

How much more mindfulness and connection with nature do we need in order to be connected with everything in a healthy and empowered way?

And what will my own contribution to that future look like?

… and where this journey will take me next, how my current healing process will unfold, and how my primordial connection with my body and the expansion of its ability to serve as a gateway to mind and soul will continue … you’ll read about it in my upcoming blog post …